A Current Attraction

Saturday, September 12, 2015

So I have a crush on a boy. It's pretty new, I guess. It's just been a few weeks. I've been staring at this page for ten minutes thinking of what to write but I can't seem to think straight. He's really funny and smart and witty and I don't know, I don't know why I literally just started liking him. Why now? Why not three months ago? Or last year? Ugh I sound like such a five year old right now, I'm sorry. I rarely never see him in school, but that's expected because we're in different faculties and university is huge as hell. 

I guess I'm intrigued. I want to get to know him. That's easier said than done because I'm incredibly shy and also super awkward with anyone who I'm not close to. And I tend to fall for the shy type too, what a joy. So Farah once said - okay, not once, she tells me this many many times - "you'll never get what you want unless you ask" I tweeted that today. What I want is... you. It's bizarre because technically I don't even know you, like at all (unless social media and everything on the internet counts... probably not) I feel like maybe I'm not good enough? Not smart enough? Not pretty enough? Not skinny enough? Do you think about all that? What's your type? I'll never know. 

I wish I could detach my heart from my brain right now. I feel like I feel too much, and I think too much as well. It's like I'm always on overdrive. This is probably the shortest post in quite awhile, I don't know how to put how I'm feeling into words. Summary: I'm interested af, but shy af

Tip: don't fall for boys who probably won't make the first move if you're shy

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