Hi, it's Tiara! Is that my first time introducing myself in a post, yes, probably. Anyway, I did mention that I was thinking about the camps I should go to. It's a huge dilemma for me because firstly, I hate camps. I hate not sleeping in my own bed, I hate not showering in my own bathroom, I hate the possibility that my makeup will run off and I'll be ugly again. I'm also incredibly shy so it terrifies me to meet new people - but that's the purpose of the camps right? I already signed up for my course camp so I'm really excited (and scared) for that. The theme this year is movies. I hope they'll email/text/whatsapp me the details about this soon or I'll get insanely paranoid. I'll create some sort of a timetable to keep track of whatever events/camps I have to attend. I guess my main reasons for wanting to go to camp are (1) learn  the way around school, (2) make friends, get to know people. But you know... I think I'm not signing up for the Union Camp, the largest cross-faculty camp - after reading up other blog posts about it. Apparently there's something called the Secret Partner/Pal thing where you're blindfolded and you have to hold hands with someone of the opposite gender and talk to them for like two hours and there's date night and all that which would preeeeetty awkward for me. So yeah, unfortunately, even though I really want to go, I really don't want to go either. I'm not going to faculty camp either lol. So yeah  I'm only going for my course camp! Hope that wouldn't disappoint. I was thinking of what CCAs to join, if I were to join any at all. I'm hungry. NERVOUS ABOUT ALL OF THIS. UNIVERSITY. I AM OLD.

Alright, enough about university. 

I miss you, sometimes. Like... I think of what could've been. (Positive thinking here) Sometimes I think back to the times we used to talk and how you'd make me laugh. It was like a so close but so far kind of situation? If I had just been braver and made the first move... Okay maybe I'm delusional. You probably never felt the same way towards me, I think. I just kept keep wishing that maybe we could have been more. But you're like wayyyy up there now like wayyyy out of my league and I'm still me lol UGH SO DONE WITH THIS. IT'S BEEN LIKE A LITTLE OVER TWO YEARS SINCE I MET YOU IN SCHOOL. I NEED TO GET OVER YOU. 

I made a little collage thing to show my hair evolution. I posted this on Twitter a few days ago as well.  My hair is almost black, naturally. If it's damaged by the sun, then it gets a little lighter. But after A Levels, I got it dyed - a brown balayage ombre. The brown wasn't too light so it wasn't that obvious. In fact, the picture on the top left doesn't even show my balayage, just that it's darker at the roots and lighter towards the ends. Before my last day of work (April 30), I had a day off so I bleached my hair myself at home. Surprisingly, it didn't end up damaged at all.  So that's how it looked! I had that hair for a couple weeks and I dyed it turquoise + atlantic blue but it ended up green... with turquoise ends. I loved it. But when it was fading, it turned seaweed green which was gross so I dyed it a mixture of violet/tulip/red - and ended up with this colour! The end.

I slept at like five thirty am but woke up at eight forty am on the 21st of May, the baby monkey's birthday. Got ready and then waited at the bus stop at around 11 for Nabs. She texted me and called and I boarded the bus, and of course I knew she'd be sitting right at the back, as always. So we sat there and headed for Nex! Met Sid and we designed the cake at Icing Room. It was quite affordable leh actually! And it has no alcohol or gelatin so don't worry ya'll muslim buds, the cake and icing is practically halal haha. Eli also came and we finalised the cake. Then we dropped by Zepy Games and Nabs & Sid bought me Sims 4 as part of my 2013/2014 birthday present. 

We met Xinying, gave her the cake, bought tickets to Pitch Perfect 2 and headed to Mad Jack to have lunch. We wanted to refrigerate the cake but since Mad Jack is halal certified and the Icing Room isn't, they refused to keep the cake (sad) but it's okay. Watched the movie afterwards and it was good and funny. Wish I had Anna Kendrick's body type/build but then I'd be super short. Actually, I want to look exactly like Phoebe Tonkin, her face her hair her body - but with my current boobs ahhahaa oh well a girl can dream. She's literally like #goals.

Hahaha last post I celebrated having blue hair, today, I had a haircut. My mom told the haidresser "2.5 inches" and that didn't seem like a lot so I didn't say anything. My hair is short now. I'm watching Grimm now. I caught up with Arrow, PLL, AoS, Flash all of that. I'm so lazy and sleepy and fat and I get mad at myself a lot nowadays. Just angry at my inability or refusal or laziness to do things I want to do.

Anyway, I visited the polyclinic today for the second time in my life for my skin condition and my appointment at the NSC will probably be two months from now so in the meantime, I'll just have to deal with this.

MY NEW RAPPER NAME IS LAY-Z BYE

So in my previous post I mentioned I dyed my hair blue. It turned out greener than I expected because of the yellow tones of my hair which the white toner didn't quite work on. I'm really happy with how it turned out considering I bleached/dyed my hair myself - with the help of my sister Farah for the highlights. 

I woke up at 8am and started getting ready for my outing with my friends. I decided to curl my hair as well because I thought the blue would stand out more? So yeah this was how it looked like! 

I wore my Cotton On striped dress with my new grey knit sweater and my black Converse shoes.  So we met up in the morning at Tampines, bought tickets at Golden Village for the movie "Unfriended". The new GV ticket scanner is quite... cool? I really hate how they stopped using the card-like tickets and opted for thin slips of square paper... I guess that's the more environmentally friendly option. I bought the hot dog as well and a drink and we went up! The cinema theater was quite empty - duh, it's a weekday morning - and the movie was quite funny! Yes, it's a horror movie but I found it quite funny, and gory as well. It was a good movie overall! Afterwards, Nabs, Sid and I met up with Eli at Changi Airport MRT and then we looked for 4 Fingers!!! I loved loved loved it. I looked at the menu a couple days before and didn't quite like anything so I was part-dreading going there. But no regrets! I ordered the Chicken Burger combo with no lettuce, tomatoes, onions - just the crispy chicken with garlic soy sauce and the burger buns, with kim chi fries. I really liked it! Then we headed to iSound to visit my colleague Xinyi yay I missed her! She said she liked my green hair hahaha then we went to the warehouse (of my old job) but the person I wanted to see was on MC. We went downstairs afterwards and guess who I met in the ladies' bathroom!! Two of my colleagues!! Linda H and Jennifer!! It was so nice to see them!! Headed off to iSound and talked to Jay a bit and then went off to T1 so Sid could meet her colleague AND ELI OMFG she thinks Cesar and Jay look alike hahaha like hell naw not at all! I laughed so hard and Cesar is so nice?? Like he's really funny. Jeng jeng jeng afterwards, we took a bus from the airport to Parkway Parade to get Llao Llao and we (Eli and Sid) came across a store that sold cheap earphones. I like urgently needed that because from Parkway there is only one straight bus home and that takes 1.5h and I left my earphones at home. While at the store, Eli or Sid pointed out the hair dyes - or I might have noticed them myself... since I'm the only one who knows how the packaging looks like right haha and since it was cheaper than the ones I got from Qoo10... I bought another two tubs - in Tulip & Violet. And I got $10 earphones which were shit ass quality like I swear I've never heard anything worse than that, as well as another woven fabric cable for my iPhone 5. Bumped into Lim Min at Etude House! Then we finally left and I got on my bus, stood for twenty minutes, got a seat (thanks Allah) and sat for over an hour until I reached my destination. 

I was completely exhausted when I reached home but I saw a small parcel on the table for me!! So I ripped it open and my Menow Kissproof Matte Lipstick has finally arrived!! I bought them in all the 19 shades available, and it costed a total of S$37, I think. First impression: That's super affordable for NINETEEN LIPSTICKS. I completely adored the packaging and the crayon-like tubes. I swatched all of them on my arm, and they applied so smoothly and they're so creamy. But it dries almost immediately! And is transfer-proof (I tried rubbing all of them and they didn't budge) so I bet they're really kissproof!!! Anyone who actually does any kissing in their life wanna vouch for this? So I'll do a video review on this soon after I test it on a day out with me eating and all that but I have high hopes for this product. I showered and used soap on it - didn't budge. But when I scraped it with my fingernails, it did come off a little - duh. But don't worry, when you finally do want to remove it, just use a cotton pad soaked with makeup remover and voila! It's gone! :) Subscribe to my youtube channel to see when the review for these lipsticks will be up! Link is on the top right of this page. 

Yay so today I got up, dressed up and took a picture for my NUS thing. So I finally accepted the NUS Nursing offer - so hey in like five years if you visit the hospital I might just be your nurse!!! Managed to sort out my makeup & camera equipment drawer. I'm rewatching Season Two of The 100 with my family so that's fun because I get to see my Bellamy more. I hope my April pay gets in soon because I'm incredibly excited!! Ugh I miss work and everyone at work. 

Okay, so I'm watching Unfriended with Nabs and Sid and then meeting Eli later on at the airport so we can eat at 4 Fingers which just recently became halal - watch my Snapchat story!! It's only gonna be up for 24 hours!! - and then I'm going to the warehouse to get money then drop by T1 to do stuff and then finally coming home yay! Yikes just realised that's gonna be on Tuesday. So Monday - tomorrow - is my dyeing-hair-blue-day. Muahahaha 

So yeah I didn't do much today at all. Probably gonna stay up to watch Vampire Diaries or something. I should probably take a late shower later to wash off all the disgusting black hairspray which makes my hair so dry and gross lol. So excited to have soft blue hair tomorrow.

LIJDHFUGYWEFWEG

------------------- Five hours later -----------------------

Farah wants to go out tomorrow... Aka in like twelve hours. I also dyed my hair blue. So I might have pics up lol. Going to watch Age of Adaline and have lunch.

Two blog entries in one day?? What's wrong with you T Amals - but whatEVER now I'm jobless and school-less, so I have all the time in the world to blog as much as I want. I should probably film more videos as well - I already have a couple planned out so susbcribe to my youtube channel and keep a lookout for that please and thank you. Anyway, I want a new laptop okay!! I'm currently using a mid-2010 Macbook Pro and yeah it's still working but the battery life is shit because hello it's five years old. And in my previous blog entry, you'd see that I want Sims 4 right - HELL YES JUDE AND CONNOR OMF I'M WATCHING THE FOSTERS - okay sorry and the specs of my laptop aren't up to standards okay!! 

So the recommended specs for optimal play are:

So I shortlisted a few:

• ASUS X555LD-XX954H ($899) -- 4.3kg
• HP 15R040TX J8C37PAAB4 ($899) -- IDK
• HP 14R213TX L1L60PA ($849) -- less than 2kg
• ACER E5471G55SU ($849) -- 2.45kg

Idk if my dad will buy for me lah why would he support my gaming needs right hahaha plus I'm going to start university soon also :/ Anyway I'm such an addict at shopping OMFG I swear this entire post just features everything bad about me - I'm actually a decent and responsible human being okay, I promise. But anyway I've spent so much and I still have to spend more on like university stuff like notebooks and files and stationery and clothes and a bag and accessories and whatever wow okay I need to make a list

• New jeans - I only have one pair of black jeans that I absolutely adore - the rest are all ew
• Clothes - More? Most of my clothes are t-shirts. I need girlier clothes... dresses? Errrrr
• Accessories - I don't really wear accessories other than my watch, some rings and hairbands
• School Stuff - Notebooks, I have a few. Stationery I NEED TO GET because everything disappeared after A Levels

I'M GONNA DYE MY HAIR BLUE LIKE THIS IN A FEW DAYS BYE

I was just checking one of my old posts and I noticed that my new layout does the numbered bullets in Korean... How strange is that? But anyway, I was listing down the bands that I've seen live, in chronological order. So here it is:

And I'm seeing one of my current favourite bands Our Last Night live in May, and of course, The Maine in August. Anyway I'm so mad at myself! I was supposed to wake up at 10:30am and prepare for 11am aka the time the early bird tickets will be released but I kept snoozing - I slept at 5am - and woke up only at 1pm and by then the early bird tickets were sold out so I was like mad calling Sid to ask if she'd be alright if I got the standard tickets but she was at the gym and I was like screw it, I'm getting the tickets.

Anyway my remaining 2013/14 Birthday Budget is like $150? I asked the clique (still cringing at this word) for Sims 4 and/or a gift card to Sephora/Courts. I really want Sims 4 and I'm only free now aka when university has not started so I pretty much want it immediately - but if they take forever then I might just get Sims 4 myself ahahhaa I still remember when Nabs got me Sims 3 Late Night in 2011 and I was happy as hell that was literally the best gift ever hahaha

I'm hungry and my dad doesn't want to go out and buy food. I watched the last instalment of The Butterfly Effect last night. It's so good - watch all 3. 

OKAY I'M TOO LAZY TO TYPE ADIOS

I had my last day of work today. I swear I felt like crying. Today was good, though. I worked with Ali and Jennifer, as well as Marie who had split shift. The taxi driver reached work late so I called in to say I was gonna be late, then the day started out fine. It was quite a busy day actually!! I couldn't quite care less since it was my last day, but I did my best to serve all customers anyway. Jay called work at about 8:50 asking to help him and Linda He punch in since they had QSM. He recognised my voice so that was cool. I recognised his voice by the way he said my name hahah but I asked "Who are you" just to double confirm anyway before punching in for them. Then I checked the schedule and saw that MK had QSM as well so I punched for her. (I couldn't really tell if Jay said to punch for MK as well because it was incredibly noisy over the phone. But that was pretty much the last time I'll hear his voice unless I visit the staff at iSound haha anyway I took my break at 9am with Sid who came from T1 transit to T2 transit for me and we had macs breakfast and then she wanted to visit my store so while walking back to my store, I saw my MCM guy!! I still don't know his name or if he's malay or indian but he's like really tall and if y'all know a tall brown guy who works at Changi Airport's T2 MCM then tell me on my ask.fm hor haha

After break I pasted my goodbye letter on the wall of my store room and put out the biscuits and candy that I bought. Then I sent Sidra to the skytrain so she could go back to her terminal and guess who I saw!! MCM guy!! I have no idea why he never just stays at the MCM store - he literally disappears for hours. But yeah he's so attractive but my colleagues says he's aqua but like... straight or nah? Whatever that was the last time I'd see him. I was so tempted to turn back and just go MCM and say "Hi, it's my last day working here and I just wanted to know your name." But that's awkward as hell so nevermind. Hours went by rather quickly. I went into the store room to get a drink and saw Donny and Linda reading my note and I was like *awk, I'll come back later* hahaha but they said it was touching haha I'm glad they liked it. Anyway,  Jennifer/Jessie/Linda/Donny/Ho got me a Chanel lipstick as a small goodbye gift so that was so sweet of them although I think Jessie did contribute the money for the gift reluctantly hahah - but thank you nonetheless. She also said "It's your last day, why you take so many sales" and I'm just confused because both my sales (as a temp staff) and counter sales would be divided over the main staff so isn't it better if I took the sales since I'd help pack the items and assist the customers with anything else? Oh well, then from then on, after I served the customers I'd just bring them to the cashier and then leave to let Jessie settle everything since she didn't want my help anyway. I'm insanely proud of myself because my sales target for this month was I think $64.5k and guess how much I did? Probably $105k so that's awesome, right? That means $8k extra for all the staff - love you guys :)

So then it was almost 3:30pm and I was about to cry but I said goodbye to Jennifer/Ali and all the promoters - it was Fysil's last day as well. And he was like "Darling - I'll miss you" hahaha but ugh so upset. I stayed until the afternoon shift people came and I said goodbye to them as well and hugged them :( Then I returned my wonderful magnet to Peter and gave back my keys as well - asking him to pass it to Linda - then Simon shook my hand and said thank you & good luck and Peter shook my hand as well and said "Thank you for your contribution" and I left :'( I changed clothes and exchanged my airport pass then I waited for Sid who took for-fricking-ever and then we finally went up to the warehouse to collect our March sales booster incentive aka a $50 NTUC voucher. Then we went to Pizza Hut at Tampines. Had lunch/dinner and FINALLY WENT HOME. I crashed and only woke up at 9pm lol here are some pictures :/